As you all know from my previous posts, that I lost my firstborn, Troy, in 2018. During that time I grew closer to our Lord God as I had no one, other than my husband, to lean on. I lost friends that could not wrap their minds around the fact that I needed time to cope, I had family members not even want me to bring up my son’s name. My ‘support’ system had seemed to go away when I lost my son and it made me appreciate those that were there for me, even more.
During my grief process, I tried working out, I was admittedly obsessed with getting pregnant once more, and more importantly I began to talk to God more. About five months after Troy’s death, my husband and I conceived Silas.
The Lord blessed us and we welcomed Silas this year. I was nervous during my pregnancy with him since we did not know why we lost Troy, but I did not turn away from God. Instead, I prayed every day and I did feel some peace in that because I heard Him say that I would get to raise this child here on Earth.
But during my time of grieving and carrying Silas, I noticed that a lot of other loss moms were turning away from the Lord. They were all so angry and instead of leaning on Him, they abandoned their faith.
Because of all of this, I decided to write a seven day devotional, Stillbirth and Christ. I want others to turn towards the Lord and receive Him like I did. I want others to heal and to know that He is with them in their pain. I do not know why some of us have to go through this, all I know is that I want to celebrate Troy’s memory by helping others.
You can find Stillbirth and Christ on Amazon exclusively. This book will be free for download Monday, September 16th, to Tuesday, September 17th. I am offering this for free for those that may not have the money and need this word.