October is national infant loss awareness month, and as most of you know, my husband and I lost our firstborn, Troy. I had no intention of being sad this month. Instead I wanted to honor Troy by spending more time with family, and just being happy that he is my son. Unfortunately things didn’t pan out how I envisioned.
Between the disconnect with my mom, pressures from my employer, and pressures from my business, my soul was left vulnerable. Typically I am able to cope with the loss stories, but this month was hard. I kept hearing that I was going to birth this, deliver that, or I would see my rainbow’s name in the same sentence as death, and honestly it got to me.
This week, I needed to take a step back. I had to recharge myself and seek God more heavily. I had to remind myself to put on my armor every single day. I needed to get back to just sitting in silence.
This weekend, if you have been dealing with some burnout, I encourage you to go back to basics. Turn your phone off for a couple of hours, and just be still. Seek God, journal, or even play video games. The point is to recharge your battery.