Testimony Thursday

August 28th, I was in first car accident. It was around 9 pm when I was travelling home from working the late shift. I had my phone on speaker, so that I could listen in on a master class. I have a 40 minute commute to and from work. I had everything set up before I even drove off of campus, because a distracted driver is a dangerous driver.

The master class had just begun as I was merging into the far right lane. I stayed back a bit in case the semi that was in the southbound lane needed to go northbound instead. After a minute, it seemed as though the semi was truly going southbound, so I felt comfortable speeding up. I was almost up the ramp, when the semi changed its mind, and merged into my lane.

I was terrified, but so thankful to God that my son was not in the car, and that I was not hurt. My car was deemed a total loss by insurance, and while I had gap insurance, my car had previous damage to it, so gap informed me that they would not be covering the difference.

I was distraught.

Not only was I shaken up by the ordeal, but I now had to get a new vehicle with no money to put down. I also still owed money on my old car. I could dwell and dwell on this, so instead I made the conscious decision to take my problems to the Lord. My circumstances were telling me that I was in a worst position than before. The enemy was trying to stop me from getting the message from the master class. The enemy took my car, but my cousin had a spare that I was able to use. I stayed prayed up, and God blessed me with a better and safer car for my family. God allowed me to get a much better deal on the car loan than my previous one. God pushed me to sign up for the program that resulted from the master class, and I’m already seeing results. I put in some more hours at work to cover what was left to pay on my old loan, and to my surprise, God blessed me again.

I received a letter from the car loan company telling me that my account was closed and paid in full. Hallelujah! I thanked God because I knew it was by His will. This was all a couple of weeks ago, so I had thought that the previous car loan was done. This morning when I checked my mail, I had a note from the loan company. One letter was telling me that my account was paid in full, And that they owed me money! The second letter was a check from them. I began to weep as I was reading the letter because it was so unexpected, and I am just so grateful for our Provider.

Today, I urge all of you to stop and give thanks to Him. He takes care of all of our needs, and makes sure that we are not without.

I just wanted to share with you all, that staying steadfast in your faith, is the greatest peace of all.

Sometimes Having A Plan Can Be Detrimental

Last weekend I had Saturday and Sunday off, so I wanted to do more family activities with my husband and our little boy. I had it all planned out, we were going to get up early and take the dogs to walk at our local park. Maybe even get ice cream afterwards.

I spent so much time being focused on this plan for Saturday that I allowed myself to become angry when my plan was not going how I envisioned.

So, the day before, I left the trash bag out and our oldest husky got into it while we were away grocery shopping. I was pretty upset with myself because I forgot to throw the trash out before we left. Fast forward to Saturday, our Baldwin is now doing his business in the house and vomiting. The first time it happened, I just cleaned up the mess and thought nothing of it. He is old, so maybe he’s having issues. But then it kept happening all day, so much so that I didn’t even feel comfortable leaving to go to the park.

When Baldwin first had his accident, I figured, oh maybe it’s because he’s older and I didn’t move fast enough to take him out. I was still pretty determined that we were all going to go to the park. I tried getting my husband up, and he would just look at me, and then fall right back asleep. Because I was so focused on my plan for the day, this annoyed me greatly. When he finally got up it was closer to noon, and Baldwin had had more accidents since then.

My usually happy baby was extremely sassy, though I suspect that he was picking up on mommy’s bad mood. My husband didn’t get up until noon, the dog was having accidents, and I was getting more and more frustrated with how the day was going.

I ended up hanging out in my bedroom for a bit, because I realized that I needed to check myself. No, things were not going the way that I planned, but that shouldn’t have made me lash out at my husband. He was clearly tired and needed that extra rest.

One thing that God has put heavy on my heart this year is to let go. I do not always need to be in control, and Saturday showed me that I have much more work to do on myself.

Baldwin is doing just fine, now that his stomach has settled. We never did go on that walk, but I still got to be with my family, and really that’s all I should hope for.

Maybe The Problem is You

My favorite thing to do is to read. I’m on my bible app first thing in the morning, I scroll through Facebook and read the posts and the comments. Sometimes, I scroll on websites and read the comments there. I’m constantly consuming something, and I’d say 90% of the time, the comments are negative. There was an article that discussed how actress Lisa Raye was planning to marry some pastor. One of the comments stated, that they felt that it was wrong for a pastor to drive a car that was better than the members of the church. I have seen other comments or had people even say to me, “if God is so great, why am I in this situation”.


Here’s the thing, it is naive for anyone to believe that they will go through life without some type of sacrifice or tribulation. There is always something going on in the background, there is always some type of burden, there is always some type of inconvenience. How you react to those situations determines the outcome. God gave us free will. If you are having financial hardships, maybe ask yourself what did you do to get in this situation. Yes, pray to God to help you manage what you already have, and ask Him for financial freedom; but do not blame Him for the choices that you made. God did not tell you to go out and buy a brand new car with a $500 car note. This belief that if you do not have something, then no one should is absurd. In Jeremiah 29:11 God tells us, “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.


Going into quarter 4, there needs to be a mindset shift now. Do not wait until January to declare that this is a new year, new you. No, you need to make a change today. Stop worrying about what others have, you have no idea of their circumstances. I’ll be transparent, I had a friend who I had to stop hanging out with because they made me feel so uncomfortable. Every hangout, they would make comments about how much money they assumed I had based on my decent car, apartment, or because I feed my dogs ‘expensive’ food. I finally got so tired of the ‘digs’ that I told them, I have student loan debt, I have no work-life balance because I can not seem to get ahead. I am the sole provider for my family, and I also have to take care of my mom. I have to drive 60 miles a day for work, so I try to take care of my vehicle because I need it to last. I do not have it all together.


Instead of worrying about what others have or blaming God for what I think I lack, I intentionally choose to keep my head down. I intentionally ask Him to help me manage what I already have because I can not expect to be blessed with more if I don’t know how to manage what I already have. If you are serious about making a change, then do so today, do not wait until the new year. No, be intentional today and check yourself.

Monday’s Prayer

Lord,
Thank You for waking every one of us up this morning. Thank You for watching over us through the night while the enemy prowled around. Lord, this morning, I want to declare that no harm shall come on Your people.

I pray that when Your people awake this morning, that they will not groan or whine about it being Monday, but instead they will wake joyfully, for they have been provided another day to make a change. That they can start their week off right by glorifying You. Lord, I declare that those who are in need will see a breakthrough.

That, they will receive a call or an email today telling them that they have the position that they have been praying for. That when they go to check their accounts or pay their rent, that there will be an extra credit. Lord, I declare that those who seek You will have peace on this day.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

The Waiting Season

I feel as though a lot of you are in a season of waiting. You are waiting for that new job, for that new position, for that spouse, or for that new financial breakthrough.

Just waiting.

Maybe you get upset because things are not progressing at the pace that you would like. Maybe you are depressed because you thought, that surely, this job will hire me. Or, maybe, you are just anxious because you feel stuck and do not know where to go from here. Sometimes, though, it is the wait that shows God if we are truly ready. Sometimes, you have to go through some things to reach the next destination.

You, see, you need to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. Anything that is worth having, is worth the effort. So, what I mean by this, is that if you had to save and save for a car, you would appreciate it more. When you know what it is like to have not, you appreciate the blessings more.

This is not the season to be rushing into new ventures and into new relationships. No, this is the season of waiting. A season of grooming, where going backward will lead you so much further than trying to rig something in your own strength.

Every attempt at a promotion or job change this year has been blocked. I had to check myself by spending time with God. It was during this time that I realized that I was trying to make moves without Him. I was trying to chase the dollar signs and the status symbol of the world, and as a result, I was not walking in alignment with Him. So, this season, I have gotten used to being uncomfortable. I have made it a habit to seek Him first thing, to seek Him before bed, and to just seek Him when I feel like I’m being attacked.

Whatever it is that you are waiting for, pray to Him and ask if it is the route that He wants you to take. Pray that if the opportunity is right for you, that those who need to like you, will. Pray that you will have peace about the situation and thank God for taking care of all of your needs regardless of what your current situation looks like.

Ask yourself and God, what is it that You want me to learn in this season? Transparency from me, God told me that I would have a ministry and be an entrepreneur. I need this season to grow in my understanding of Him, and how to let people in. Am I terrified? Yes, but I welcome the uncomfortableness, and so should you.