What makes you get up each and every morning? Are you intentional during your waking hours or are you just on autopilot?
For years, I was on autopilot, only thinking about the hours that I needed to clock in to pay the bills. My why was to make more money to cover the bills and because I put money on a pedestal. It was so bad, that I actually made a spreadsheet to calculate how much money I would be bringing home after working x amount of hours and after x amount of taxes were taken out.
It wasn’t until I lost my firstborn that I realized I needed to reevaluate what my why was. My mindset had to shift and I had to put God first. When you start seeking God, everything else will fall into place. When you start trusting God and going to Him with your cares, you stop running on autopilot. Your days will be intentional.
My why today is to serve God and do His works. So each day, I am intentional about bringing others-specifically parents that have lost a child, closer to God. And the best part of this, is that when you stop running on autopilot and you truly find your why, you will have so much peace.
Week one is all about sizing up the enemy and understanding his tactics. One thing that I have noticed this past week, is that there have been more ‘attacks’. This tells me that the enemy does not want me reading this book. The enemy does not want us going into the new year knowing how to use our spiritual gifts.
One assignment that the book has you to do, is to write down who is the most difficult person for you or the most challenging situation. I wrote down my mother because her approval is something that I have always sought. I don’t think she realized how sensitive I was growing up, and because I am the oldest, a lot of responsibility was placed on me from an early age. Not to say that my mother isn’t proud of me, but I grew up with this mindset that what I had to bring to the table was never enough.
The second item that I wrote down was a poor mindset. I didn’t grow up with a well off family nor did I really get to enjoy family vacations. I put money on a pedestal for so many years, and wondered why I could never keep any of it. The problem was that I put money before God. If I’m being transparent, God was always an after thought before I decided to truly commit myself to Him this year.
These two items that I have listed, my mother and a poor mindset, are actually not my problem. They may seem like it, but my issue- my fight, is with the enemy. These next few weeks, I am will be delving deeper into how to activate my armor, and attack these problems at their roots.