Sometimes Having A Plan Can Be Detrimental

Last weekend I had Saturday and Sunday off, so I wanted to do more family activities with my husband and our little boy. I had it all planned out, we were going to get up early and take the dogs to walk at our local park. Maybe even get ice cream afterwards.

I spent so much time being focused on this plan for Saturday that I allowed myself to become angry when my plan was not going how I envisioned.

So, the day before, I left the trash bag out and our oldest husky got into it while we were away grocery shopping. I was pretty upset with myself because I forgot to throw the trash out before we left. Fast forward to Saturday, our Baldwin is now doing his business in the house and vomiting. The first time it happened, I just cleaned up the mess and thought nothing of it. He is old, so maybe he’s having issues. But then it kept happening all day, so much so that I didn’t even feel comfortable leaving to go to the park.

When Baldwin first had his accident, I figured, oh maybe it’s because he’s older and I didn’t move fast enough to take him out. I was still pretty determined that we were all going to go to the park. I tried getting my husband up, and he would just look at me, and then fall right back asleep. Because I was so focused on my plan for the day, this annoyed me greatly. When he finally got up it was closer to noon, and Baldwin had had more accidents since then.

My usually happy baby was extremely sassy, though I suspect that he was picking up on mommy’s bad mood. My husband didn’t get up until noon, the dog was having accidents, and I was getting more and more frustrated with how the day was going.

I ended up hanging out in my bedroom for a bit, because I realized that I needed to check myself. No, things were not going the way that I planned, but that shouldn’t have made me lash out at my husband. He was clearly tired and needed that extra rest.

One thing that God has put heavy on my heart this year is to let go. I do not always need to be in control, and Saturday showed me that I have much more work to do on myself.

Baldwin is doing just fine, now that his stomach has settled. We never did go on that walk, but I still got to be with my family, and really that’s all I should hope for.

Five Prayers To Get You Through The Week

Marriage Prayer

Please give me the strength to grow stronger in my marriage, Lord. The devil is trying to gain a way in, but Lord, I declare that he will find no victory. I rebuke any ill will towards my marriage. Lord, I ask that You work on me, through me, and within me. I ask that You help me to change so that I am a better spouse. I pray that You open my spouse’s heart, so that we may live more peacefully. I declare that we will see many years together and we will do so happily.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Finance Prayer

Dear Lord,

I am praying to You for a miracle, Lord. The bills are piling up and the money that I worked so hard for, seems to be for naught. I turn towards You, so that I may have everlasting peace, and so that I may enjoy my time here on earth. Lord, I ask that You help me to manage what I already have. I ask that You bless me abundantly. Even though I have little to give, I will still pay my tithes to You. Lord, I realize that if You are to bless me, that I need to give my dues. So, Lord, as I give You my tenth- Your tenth, I ask that You see fit to bless me this month.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Family Prayer

Lord, please watch over my family every second and every moment of the day. I anoint myself and my family in Your holy spirit, in the blood of Jesus Christ, and in Your grace. I pray that my child will continue to grow stronger and healthier. I pray that my spouse will remain steadfast and healthy. Let no harm find us. Let us not react in anger, but to give each other grace. But more importantly, Lord, let us worship You with grace and dignity.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Grief

Lord, I ask that I can lean on You as I process the loss of my loved ones. Lord, the holidays will soon be approaching and with them, they seem to shine a light on those that are no longer on earth with us. Lord, I pray for your strength and guidance, so that I can uplift those that I have lost. I pray that I will be able to honor them and spread joy to others because I know that I will see my lost one again. So, today Lord, I draw in closer to Your embrace, and I ask that You help to share some of the pain that I am feeling. I ask that You take some of the pain away so that instead of mourning my loved one, I instead celebrate the life they lived while they were here.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

WellBeing

Heavenly Father,

There are three months left in this year. Some would say not enough to make a change, but I serve a living God. So, Lord, I pray to You today asking for Your help. I ask that You help me to make a change. Lord, I declare that I will eat healthier and lose weight so that I am physically strong. I need to be able to endure this task that You have called for me to do. Lord, I declare that any negative thoughts about myself will cease because I know that I was made perfect in your eyes. Lord, I declare that my patience will increase and my anger will not be so quick to ignite. Lord, I pray that You will open my heart to these changes and that I will know that it was through Your grace that I will be anew.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.